All right, let's shut the fuck up about all that "survivor" shit, now, why don't we? It's stupid. It doesn't empower me. What's so special about not having died? Do I deserve a cookie for not having killed myself? I mean, what the fuck did I survive for? This? It can't be this. There's nothing here. I fought and I tried and the end result a ridiculous, empty life and a lot of crying to this dramajournal. It never gets any easier and it never gets any better. Congratulations. Go me.