I talked to the dr.'s office today. They told me to stop one of the meds for a couple of days, but to stay with the others. I'm randomly bursting into tears, but who knows what the fuck is up with that.

I need more reasons than I have right now. In every sense. I'm trying to find them, but I can't see anything. I just can't.

I woke up every two hours or so last night. Please don't let tonight be like last night. I don't know what I am going to do if I keep having those nights. This is why people drink themselves into oblivion and I can't even do that right now. And I can't find any alternative. So I do nothing. I write here and imagine the people who read this rolling their eyes and I wonder if that's just another symptom or something. I can't separate me from the symptoms.