I can't stop trembling. My fingertips are vibrating over the keys as I type. The medication also makes me want to rock back and forth, which is how I tend to react to stimulant type drugs. I go to the doctor again in two weeks. I don't think I have ever wanted to go to the fucking doctor so badly as I do now.

I feel blank. Really blank. But there is a tremor right above my diaphragm. And my body is tense. My neck is full of concrete. My jaw is tight as all hell and my TMJ bullshit is bad. I feel like there is something waiting to be released and I'm afraid of it.